Personal blog – Suicide
“You don’t know what I’m going through!” No, I don’t and neither have you walked in my shoes. Why cannot we uplift each other anyway? Many times I have heard people walking the paths of different religious backgrounds saying my life is insignificant to them. Let me tell you. Don’t listen to the bullies. Remember Job? I don’t care if you’re Christian, Jewish, Pagan, Wiccan, or Secular. You can learn from anyone, any story, anytime.
Job 2:9 Then said his wife unto him: ‘Dost thou still hold fast thine integrity? blaspheme God, and die.’
ט וַתֹּאמֶר לוֹ אִשְׁתּוֹ, עֹדְךָ מַחֲזִיק בְּתֻמָּתֶךָ; בָּרֵךְ אֱלֹהִים, וָמֻת.
There have been numerous times over the years where I have wanted to give up on life, but then who would fight for the little guy? Who would help a stranger if I insult the chance, karma, the blessing of what tomorrow brings? I remember being on a highway, 7 months pregnant and changing a woman’s tire who had no clue how to change it. This one homeless man was hitchhiking in the wrong direction and I steered him back on track. Those are incredible situations, but what about telling a bill collector or a clerk that I care about their headache or their sinus infection? Maybe they didn’t care nor wanted to try any of my natural remedy suggestions, but they could see the love in my eyes which gave them the strength to make it just one more hour till they got off of work.
Who would retain the desire for honest, fair and hope in the world if one more honest person became dishonest or deceased? So many times I have put my children before my own health. I can count on two hands the number of times I was critically low on magnesium because I breastfed my kids longer than I could physically handle. After multiple surgeries and injuries, I was told, “Not my monkey, not my circus. You’re not my religion or my family or community SO I will not help you through this difficult time you are going through.”
Well, let me tell you, that is exactly what you need to hear to become the person you are supposed to be. When you take the negative words and let them pile up on your shoulders, weighing your back down, you will not fly like an eagle. You will not soar over the trees, the rivers and the desert. Your dreams will die. If I had given up my integrity and insulted the Creator by taking my own life, I would not be here. Death is not fair to anyone left behind. The loss of any life compounds the issues down the road whether I die naturally or by my own hand.
Hey, now. Don’t get mad at me. I don’t know who in your life committed suicide. I’m not talking about the past or judging them. I’m telling my story. I’m encouraging you in your life.
There was a man who committed suicide I think about all the time. I was too emotionally involved in my own life to even hear the pain in his voice. I cannot revive him from the dead. I can only take pride when my husband reminds me that what I told that poor soul, protected others from getting hurt, injured or killed during his decision to take his own life. He had taken his own life, but by me being me: I had prevented other’s from the poor soul harming anyone but himself. Who else could lose their life tomorrow, if I stop being me.
Another soul came along who talked of suicide. My guilt of previous selfishness jump-started my desire to save them. However, I learned if people want to self-harm themselves that is on them. I cannot save someone who does not want to save themselves.
I am sorry I have approached this delicate subject. You do not need to hear this blog post, but there is someone else out there. They need to know. Their life matters to the next homeless person, cashier, family member, or rich person. All lives matter. I don’t care which color or skin, religious background, or political affiliation. Your life will affect someone down the road. Do you want to be responsible for taking your influence out of their life? Don’t listen to those who would tell you to insult the life running through your veins. Listen to me. Lift your chin and walk on.
MAY YOUR LIFE BE ELECTRIFIED.
Signing off for now,